A Birthday’s Gift

Dear Pratik,

I wish you a wonderful year ahead on this special day, the day of your birthday. With all my heart, I wish you all the joys, happiness and success for ever.

Yesterday, I thought about you for a long time and remembered our bygone days. Do you remember how you were?...how you would run barefoot to catch the sun for me?...and when you couldn’t, you’d say that you tried…ran quick…the only problem was that the sun ran quicker…
Once I had said that you can’t catch it, and you had said, “I will some day…she can’t be far from my reach forever…and even if she does, I’ll thrive to eternity to reach her…”

Do you still chase the sun for me Pratik? Or have you held it? Or have you almost gotten it? I continue to wonder…

I thought of writing to you a long time ago…but I wanted to wait…wait to let you know what my heart’s been begging to say for a very long time of silence…

I love you too Pratik. Indeed, I love you more than anything else in the world…more than words can express.
Since the beginning I had loved you, yet I had refrained it because I feared…feared that I might stop loving you or you may do so…or we both mad do…feared that time would turn and prey not just us but our love as well…
Yet Pratik, I now no longer can avoid your love because of fear. I no loner want to affect my present and the joy it brings on by predicting future…I no longer care the future…as a matter of fact, there is no future but eternal present…the very moment where we live, smile, love and hold each other in arms and reclaim the missed fragrance of love…

The months of silence taught me many things which I had never learnt…the major being what I have just expressed…

My Love, my only Love and only Love, I have loved you more in these silences…my heart has beat a million times calling your names and expressing my love…wondered about you and longed your warm embrace…

My Love, what I learnt in the silence is it true? There is no future…isn’t it? And neither should we affect our present and the joy it brings by imagining the future…am I not right my Love? I know I am…and even if you disagree, I will grow stubborn this time and make you accept it…no matter what!!!

My joy today has overflowed to express my love that I’ve tried to debar for a long time. Maybe I can continue talking…its as if I have so much to say…so much I want you to listen…I don’t care if I bore you by this long letter…neither do I care if I take your long time…time can wait today…and it must wait…and if it doesn’t, I don’t care!

My Love, no more words today. I know I can write more, but you can’t read more!!!
I’m smiling with every word I’m writing…

Happy Birthday once again my Love.
I love you too.

Maybe you have caught the sun…or the sun’s caught you!!!

Love you too forever,

Yours and only yours,

Beloved.